To New Beginnings

First blog entry ever. Let me begin by telling you a little about how this site came about. For the past few days I've been feeling very down. A lot of issues surfaced and it was a lot to deal with. And there were so many things running through my mind. Prior to this, I had experienced a series of unfortunate events. I'd rather not go into detail because I'm still a little traumatized, to be honest. Let's just say that I actually know how it feels to hit rock bottom. I complain a lot about how unfair my life is, but the truth is, my problems pale in comparison to others. Yeah, I deal with pressures from my family and we all have our own personal issues, but at the end of the day, I have far more to be thankful for.

Within this week, I strayed away from every one and every thing. Friends, cousins, sisters, and even my parents. I disconnected myself. I felt like I just needed to be alone. So that's what I did. The only thing I had was this new book that I've started to read. This book has really put a lot of things into perspective for me. I guess as I begin to learn more about blogging, I'll be able to be more open with sharing, but for now, I'd like to keep a little mystery.

So this is why I want to start a blog. I want to share my life with others. There is so much life to experience. I've been inspired to complete my life list. And this blog will serve as that. A documentation of me completing the things that I've always wanted to do in life. As time goes on, I'll share my life list. I'm still trying to think of a hundred things. As of now, I have 74 items on my list. I began writing my "bucket list" a few years ago after I graduated college. I was tired of always just having it in my mind. Every time I thought of something, I would say "I've always wanted to do that." And it was always just kept locked in my brain. Then I started writing everything down on an index card (which I still have, by the way). There were only 30 items on that list and most of them were too extreme. Out of reach, you may say. Then a little show on MTV called "The Buried Life" came along. And honestly, it's what inspired me to rewrite my list and include things that aren't too out of reach. So here I am, with 74 items and only 11 items crossed off. By physically writing it down on paper, it's a lot easier to actually complete. So wish me luck because I'm really excited to document it.

I've realized that life's too short to be miserable. Everyone encounters difficulties and obstacles and if it's too much for us to handle, we begin to think that nothing is worth it anymore. But that's a lie. And I'm learning that. I can't always keep everything bottled up inside. I need to let it out. And I guess you can say this is my form of venting. Maybe it'll help. Maybe it won't. Only time will tell. For now, I just want to love every minute I have left in this world.