Dear Friends

Dear Friends,

Please stop telling me to return to my "old normal self". Please stop forcing me to go out drinking and partying with you guys. Please stop telling me that I've changed. Please stop. Please please please. Just stop.

You have no idea what I've been through in the past few weeks. And yes, maybe I have changed. But has it ever occurred to you guys that I may have changed for the better. That incident I went through, it ate me up inside. I fell victim to something that could have happened to anyone. But it happened to me. And in some messed up skewed kind of way, maybe God was trying to tell me to slow down. Maybe He was trying to tell me that I'm not invincible. That I can hit rock bottom. That I'm capable of making mistakes. And as unfortunate as it was, I'm trying to look on the bright side of things. That experience made me realize that I don't want to be that person anymore. I admit, it was fun while it lasted, but it became too much to handle. I didn't like the person I became. It was dangerous, selfish, and unhealthy. I know I've changed, but please stop rubbing it in my face. I'm lost, I know that. It's going to take me some time to get out of my shell. And I need you guys to understand where I'm coming from. So please, stop bothering me about not being "normal".

Love,
Arjay